Thought for Today
I'd grown up in a family where queers were made fun of and I'd adopted some homophobia that I seriously needed to look at. My prejudice was toward myself and how I believed God saw me: God didn't love me. He was just waiting for me to screw up, to say I told you so, and then I would get the punishment I deserved. That's the kind of Higher Power I came to Alcoholics Anonymous with. I would rather risk a life without a God than to have one that rejected me, so I rebelled at the idea of opening myself up to a Higher Power.
It took a long time to really trust that a Higher Power loves me and has my best interest at heart. It happened as I made my way through the Twelve Steps. When I decided to be fearless and thorough, withholding nothing, I became a useful and productive participant in my life.
-- Grapevine, On Dangerous Ground, February 2011, Vol. 66 No. 20
I'd grown up in a family where queers were made fun of and I'd adopted some homophobia that I seriously needed to look at. My prejudice was toward myself and how I believed God saw me: God didn't love me. He was just waiting for me to screw up, to say I told you so, and then I would get the punishment I deserved. That's the kind of Higher Power I came to Alcoholics Anonymous with. I would rather risk a life without a God than to have one that rejected me, so I rebelled at the idea of opening myself up to a Higher Power.
It took a long time to really trust that a Higher Power loves me and has my best interest at heart. It happened as I made my way through the Twelve Steps. When I decided to be fearless and thorough, withholding nothing, I became a useful and productive participant in my life.
-- Grapevine, On Dangerous Ground, February 2011, Vol. 66 No. 20
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